I grew up in a Christian home. When I was about five, I attended a church event called fam-jam. There I remember sitting on the floor and accepting Jesus into my heart and my life. At the age of 8, I was baptized on Easter Sunday and came up from the water laughing, with the joy of the Holy Spirit!
Throughout growing up into adulthood, I struggled with accepting God’s grace. My heart kept assuming I had to earn His favor, when that was the furthest from the truth, and I realized later that was my pride. This often made me be legalistic, rather than focused on God’s grace and love. It was crazy I struggled with that, despite growing up hearing about grace and having it explained to me. It has made me realize that someone can hear something repeatedly, but change will not happen until there is understanding and the person’s eyes are opened. Although that was a reoccurring struggle, God was still moving and speaking into my life and redeeming a lot of the broken pieces. (I am so thankful that despite us, God speaks! And He is so gracious and understanding, knowing our inward struggles and battles more than we do!)
At the age of 12, the Lord spoke to me in a powerful way at a Christian Bible camp. From that moment forward, it became my dream to attend Bible College and go overseas. At the age of 18, God gave me the opportunity to go oversees through a program called YWAM (Youth With a Mission). Those two months in two different countries changed my life! I grew to just begin seeing God’s heart for the nations and the whole world and became awed over how God literally can reach any people and He knows them all. This fact is crazy to wrap our minds around! After that wonderful adventure, the next logical step was Bible College.
My initial hope in attending Bible College, was to be more equipped for ministry or whatever God called me to. This is still true today. Yet it has gone so much deeper, formulating into paragraphs and paragraphs of hopes. I really want to know God, know and understand His Word, be able to share His Word with others competently, love Him and my neighbor purely, and serve Him with my whole being in everything. I pray that in ever season, no matter the circumstances, I grow in this and never stop aiming to make Jesus the delight of my soul.
Friend, living for and with Jesus is the only life worth living.
Matthew 28:18-20, “Then Jesus came to them and said, ‘All authority in heaven and on earth has been given to me. Therefore go and make disciples of all nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit, and teaching them to obey everything I have commanded you. And surely I am with you always, to the very end of the age.'”